Bittersweet

Salve!

I wanted to write a new journal entry before Critical Mass/Christmas, but I was too busy, or too lazy. But many things happened, so it's better to write one entry now, than two (one while cheerful, and another a few days ago with a bad mood). So, let's roll:

First and the worst. I am really mad. A few days ago I was so happy beacuse I purchased a ticket for a gig. Norwegian legendary band called "Arcturus" was about to play for polish fans on 14th of Januray. It's a great band, their music make my skin shivers. Morover, Arcturus have been just reactivated since 2006. So their concerts are rare and special events now. I couldn't wait to see them live. And You won't believe in it ( I still can't believe ): The gig had been canceled. I don't know why. Probably because of dissagreements with host-club and "liveart" company responcible for the orgenisation. I'm so frustrated. And mad because they don't even have balls to tell the that the gig is canceled. There is no official info about it, and nobody knows what to do. wait or take cash back.

Before the true Christmas me and my dear housemate Carolyne had organised an archeology-christmas eve It went great because everybody got realy involved in it. Each guest cooked something, we decorated our house. The food was delicious. It was funny beacuse we had so many guests than we hadn't enough cutlery. People had to chose eat only with fork, or only with knive . There were carols, there were beer and whine, there were loads of fun and joy.

The true Chistmas went well. Weather was a little suprise +10 in december it's not normal in december. But I like warmth more than cold so it's okay, even if that means winter without snow. I had a little r&r with plenty of great food and drinks. And I liked the presents just books but I love books so I'm very happy about that. I still have free time. But not entirely. I must work on my project - essay about archeology of the Great War. I consider this subject to be very interesting. New war and old methods, very brutal, dramatic, and pointless conflict. There is some interesting literature about it, nothing in my native tongue. I'm so proud of myself that I can read well, speak fluently and almost write good enough in english so I could work on my project. It's even more interesting because there are no works in my country about it. So it might be approved and well graded in the future. However there is a little problem. I must write when everybody have little christmas holidays. I hate writing under presure (but of course if I would have more time I would be so lazy and I would leave it till the last moment.

My exams are comming. I must start preparing for them. One of them looks bad, the other two looks easier and less important.

I wonder how will my new years eve look. I decided to spent it differently than before. It's really interesting. But I can't tell anything more about it because simply I don't know how will it look like. Right now I only know that I'll spend this day at my home in Breslau with only one other person. Feth! That sound dangerous^^. But I have a good faith.

I feel lazy. Please kick me in my ass wishing my will to come back to me.

Best wishes from here for the new year! It appears tha the End of the World won't come. Luckily because I have many things to do! By the way: Yesterday was a "kissing day"? I wasn't kissing at all. That's not fair!