Bad Devil

Long time no journal. So mamy things to be dealt with...

Somebody wrote once that there comes the time that all luck You have taken from life one day will surely have to be paid for. I must admit that it's true. There was a time when I considered myself to be superbly lucky. Especially when I needed it. Ending of last summer brought an end to it. And life has issued me a bill...
I usualy take precautions but even though I left with almost nothing. I can honesty said that I just repaid everything I got from luck before. So what was happening?
Bad times begun in the end of this year military service. I had plans for future, I just had to trust my friend to handle a little business for me while I was acting as soldier. And I did it. Ka-boom! Bad call. My dear friend didn't do anything. Moreover, she had kicked me in my widely open arse. We were supposed to study in Germany. I had arranged it for both of us, I had also rejected cheap housing the University offered me, just not to leave her on thin ice. She was a trustworthy person so far. To feel secure I just needed a word "You CAN count on me". Imagine that one week later I got the message "I am not doing it". And I left with nothing without even hearing "sorry" from her. Of course I had lost a good friend that day.
The outcome of this was bad. I ditched my previous apartment, because I was sure that I am going abroad again. I couldn't return. In october I couldn't find a new place to stay because in november I had to serve my country again for one month. Renting flat without living there was a waste of money. Just before november army decided that they don't need me this year. No job, no money, no flat. I was homeless for another month. At the moment there is fine, but I was so angry then.
I broke up with the Women too. I felt really bad about it. It was not hr fault at all. It was just about me and my point of view. I had also family and cash problems. Last one was a typical thing that period, but compared with everything else - it was another kick in the back.
But if You reach the bottom the only way is up. If "bad luck" could me measured clockwise - It was so bad that the gauge moved 360degrees and returned to the starting point

It's not so easy yet but. I regained control now. And I met someone who became my light in the darkness I have a good job perspective (this one is certain). I am doing well on my University (it is the last Year so soon I'll finish it if only my dissertation will be approved by authorities). I am trying to spend lot of time outside. I am visiting mountains, partying and doing my best to make my Sewatheart happy. Although it is not quite hard - it's what I want.
Belated best New Years wishes!
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