All the burning bridges that are falling after me

Salve!

A lot of things happened since my last journal entry. Some of them were good, someone rather not. My mood for now is neutral i think. Amongst things I was doing last time are such events like: moving into a new home, waging some asg battles, starting another year at University and more things connetced with it.
I'll start from bad things firstly. I need to write about them (only on DA i have journal like this so You must forgive me) It'll make me feel relieved for a while. After a long time I'm beginning to feel a bit lonely. I'm not in a relationship since april, people dear to me in my home town are not available. One is working away, another one...shit she's away too now, but our "friendshiep" has fallen apart. What's fething-funny: She's angry on me for something I didn't take part in. (In a big shortcut, she has an agrument with my university colleague. She started it, and he proved that he's smarter. And it was my fault, because I didn't helped her in this argument. Damn! What I was supposed to do, I didn't want to lost any of them. But looks like i didn't succeed) It's quite a pain, when someone for over six years are considering herself and acting like best friend for live, and suddenly burning bridges. I was damn proud and this time I decided that I AM the person to be apologised, but she was even produer, and... and just left me after many years together. There is a thin line between love and hate...
I'm becoming a bad man. I'm getting restles when I'm not in argument with anybody, so I'm doing well in keeping some people on the opossite side of the barricade. I don't know why... (lat)exempli gratia: I don't why is all the fuss about with my ex and other people. Like I don't have "scars" on my heart.
But luckily there are some people I care about. Especialy my housemate and friend Carolyne, and Silvia- My dearest friend from the place I used to work at summer holidays. And of course I must mention about my dearest foreigner penfriend. Keeping in touch with them is making my twisted mind stable. Those people (all of them are females, how weird^^) are always restoring my good mood. There may be more people, but They are not affecting on me so much. Or I don't care so much?
Nah! Never mind, I'm talking about serious shit, that doesn't want to hear anyway. So enough!
Me and prievously mentioned friend - Carolyne are having a new home. We rented (for quite a good price) an apartament. Old post-comunism style, but quite comfortable and big (48m2 per 2 people is more than enough). We have two rooms, smaller in which our beds are localised, and a larger living room with old armchairs, coffee tables, sofa and typical furniture in both rooms such as wardrobes etc. + we have, a narrow corridor, bathroom and kitchen. And a balcony. There is however one disadvantage of it. We live in suburbs of Wrocław city. And we have a long way by bus to the city center (about 20 minutes, and about 40 minutes if there is a traffic jam). We must just get used to it.
I must find myself a part time job. I have some emergecy cash, but I'm planning to buy myself a new laptop, I need it but it's quite expensive so I will not have any cash left in reserve. So I must find a place to earn some money to earn for living.
Feth! There are things I want to write, but I feel so sleepy, that it will be everything for now.

I hope that You won't die during reding this journal. Subject is quite difficult, and I don't think I'm writing prhases in english correctly. I don't like english grammar. Damn! I don't like grammar at all, but I guess I must use it to comunicate and express my feelings via deviantart. So I hope that You won't notice or forgive me any mistakes I made in this entry.

Best wishes from here!

PS. I need somebody to love...

PS2. Thanks for 6000k pageviews! I'm happy about that!